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I tried to listen
To the things you said
But I couldn't stop the voices
Inside my head
I thought it would end
If I could forget
I tried to pretend
And that I regret
Because it's eating me alive
It never ever goes away
It's strangling me inside
And suffocates me more each day
It's driving me insane
I can't take this anymore
I hate myself, I'm a useless bitch,
A filthy fucking whore
I can't see anything but red
I hate this place inside my head
I'm fucking crazy just like they said
I'd kill myself, but I'm already dead
'Cause I ignored it for too long
And I believed in my own lies
Now it's too late, my soul is gone
You can

Exaro

Psychosomatic,
a simple grammatic
prophylactic rhapsody in blue--
arms quaking, bones shaking the space
between one/two/one/two
numb hands thrumming
one loud, unending beat.

Polymorphic mobiles dance naked,
so many stars against the vacant expanse
of space/time/space/time
folding the unfolding words
into hijacked, weeping rhyme--
elementary emphatic
symbols struggling to implant it
in the stone cold static.

Miss YouWould you be happy to know
You can see her eyes?
Bright blue and green
She hides a little less now

Would you be happy to know
How your family has changed?
For the better, so gratefully
Their arms are so open now

Would you be happy to know
I walked away from the pain?
I learned to fill myself up
I feel so free now

Would you be happy to know
We still think of you?
Sometimes it still feels weird
To know you're beyond reach now

Thicker Than BloodYou don't care about who I am
Who I was
Nor who I want to be
You just want to know
How I can help you
Protect you
Minimize your efforts
Towards your own goals

I'm tired of accepting this
I'm tired of putting a down payment
On a future that may never come
I've incurred no debt here
Not in this way
I don't owe you a thing

"Better Than This"You used to have it good
Just like the rest of us
Doing things together
Hanging out as friends

Enjoying ourselves together
With the people you knew and cared about
You seemed happy
You felt alive

Then one day it happens
Then your whole world is turned upside down
Leaving you broken
Weak and defenseless

We were there to help you cope
To try and get you through it as friends should do
It was all vain
As you turned hopeless and sour

We just could not put up with it anymore
Vain efforts to help
Cheap shots being taken
Just bitterness and pain

After you found someone else
You shielded yourself from the outside world and us
It

WinterIt lingers overlong in my mouth
Like the sting of wintergreen mouthwash
Cleansing, yet numbing
I know this dormancy is needed
Slumber more so I can grow
Icicles hang from my deep freeze heart
Preserving hibernating dreams
Of when the sun once again shines

"Fade To Black"I'm walking down the street
And I see you
A "tough guy"
Picking on some kids
Like a bully

As I witness the punishment you deal out
I take your hand
And push it away from them
Annoyed by my actions, you throw a right hand
I evade it by knocking you off your feet

Threatened you are now
Because just by looking at you I can tell that
This is pointless
That you're already beaten
That you cannot win

A challenge is what you want?
A challenge is what you get
C'mon give it your best
Even though you're no threat

Show me what you got
Show me your moves
Attacking out of anger you are
I just block and evade your moves from afar

Is t

BurnedYou're in her veins like sweet fire
Burning all the way to her heart
The problem is in the flame
All she wants to feel is her blood
She's everything you ever wanted
You learned in the wisdom of your mistakes
Too brief a touch, shorter than a breath
You're afraid she'll just blow away
It pains her to say those words
Those ones you so want to hear
She's aware of your rising hope
The only hope she wanted to offer
Was to herself for a better life
Yes, she knows you want that too
The past makes the future untrustworthy
The future makes the present all too real
The present is all she has left
And a choice that no one makes
Weighin

Lover, loveless.If I ever say I've forgotten you,
it will be the biggest lie I've ever told.
I could never.
Honestly,
oh, honestly, honestly, honesty.
We've glorified beyond recognition,
and yeah,
I've been lost,
but it was all worth it,
just
for
you.
The vision of you will never be blurred,
it will be as bright as tomorrow,
and fresh as yesterday,
and I think you
should realize this now.
Beyond comprehension?
I think not.

"Rose"“Rose”

A beautiful flower
Red in color
A symbol of love and passion
Warming girls hearts with satisfaction
So soft, so elegant
Just to be in its presence and significance
A symbol of happiness and importance
Not just a flower
A symbol of hope and forgiveness
A symbol of power
I hope to give it to you all by the end of the hour
What is it?
Not just a flower
Also three girls middle names
Heather, Julia, and Angie
I love you girls
I hope it remains
The fact that I care about you girls is all that it takes
Let’s go into the field and play
While we sit and reminisce about the day
I prepare to go, but I leave som

I'll Always be ThereWhat I once felt Is now gone
The love for you vanished
You left without stare
Left me here
You promised to love me
Yet you lied
Everything was a lie
Now I lay here in my grave
With my emotions still for you
i’ll follow wherever you go
my soul is only for you
nothing can take it away
I will torture you until your body perishes
We will meet again

"Dark Half""Dark Half"
An eerie presence exists
Deep inside one's own inner subconscious
A whole other side
One doesn't know about

At times
Violent, melancholy, and misunderstood
Having instances where the stuff they do is unheard of

Why do they do these things?
That they do
Their realm is different than ours
Full of anguish, sadness, and maybe scars

What is this other side that exists inside us?
At times arrogant, silent, and cold
Their judgments don't seem to be as bold
Who is this person?
This shadowy, dark presence

Why are they tempted to be bad?
Does this mean that they are glad?
You won't know their goal
Their ambitions

Their

Infinite PossibilitiesI didn't want this
This cold walking away
The barest whisper of goodbye
Before disappearing
But could you believe
I gained infinite possibilities of being
Just by the simple expediency
Of letting you go?
Can you be happy for me?
I would understand if not
Consider then, for just a second
That you too
Have the opportunity
To fly as high as I will
Take the chance
Don't look back at me
You won't see my eyes
Or my smile
As I embrace destiny

"Missing You"I long for this feeling
One that is always enjoyable
One that is so good each and every time
One that always just seems right

Something that I have come to know better
In this time I have been with you
Bursts and bursts of adrenaline wanting to be released
Wanting to be expelled

At the sight of you is when it happens
The rest is dormant
When you are away from me
A void makes its way through my soul

I wish to hold you in my arms
Caress your hair
Embrace you tightly
Hold you close

I want to pull you in closely
Gaze into your beautiful brown eyes
See you blush when you smile
Stare at you while motionless

I want to feel your

"If Today Were My Last Day"If today were my last day
I'd have much to do
And so little time to waste
I'd get up and leave this place I call home

First, I would take a walk
Listening to my favorite songs
Once I get there, I sit there
In the park
Sitting there, just waiting

I'd take out my phone
And call the people most important to me
I'd tell my friends to meet me up here
So we could spend the day together
To make my last 24 hours last forever

I'd go to the movies
To watch my last movie
Popcorn and soda
Gummies bears too
I'd leave the movie theater and then
I'm off
To do the other things I have to do

I'd go to the tattoo parlor to get a tattoo

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Filled with echoes. Filled with laughter, long since gone.
Just a swing.
And a slide.
And a tear and a million thoughts, from an old friend, on a bench.

But, he never saw, was better off.
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In an old, very old, dusty playground.
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And you are the beast that would deform the kind.
You shall cause falsehood and sharpness of mind.
You may conceal virtues, or wait and prepare,
But I am your equal; where you are, I'm there.

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The strangest of balance,
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For you, are of the beauty,

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I keep this wish

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In the morning.
It's beautiful.

He was a story higher, still it was an empty street.
There was no sound but crackling torches,
And souls I'd never meet.

I paused my short adventure.
And passed not lightly, through this town.
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And it would be ever more.
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It's beautiful.
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Your Eyes

by $pachunka, Oct 25, 2003, 8:57:16 PM
Literature / Poetry / General Poetry / Traditional Fixed Forms

The Earth and all her jubilee and might,
and self-inflicted hardship overcome,
and doctrine forged to settle wrong and right
no more can tell her doctors from the Sun-

with science and scripture stirred and made the same,
and idols cast from dirt and lust and gold,
and sunlight ploughed and passed a clever name,
and beauty culled and bought and used and sold,

thus, sun and beauty bound and in a mew,
as each one treads your lashes and your hair,
but glossy doctrines cast and mould and skew;
and you can't tell the sunlight from the glare-

and don the golden makeup and disguise,
as lashes keep the sunlight from your eyes.

Your Eyesby $pachunka

Literature / Poetry / General Poetry / Traditional Fixed Forms

Some morning sunlight, a special somebody, and a pissy world inspired this.

'tis a Shakespearean sonnet-- for those who don't know, to achieve the maximum possible showing off, the form involves 14 lines of iambic pentameter (10 syllables per line, even syllables stressed, odd unstressed), three verses dealing with the main theme in slightly different ways (I'm actually not 100% sure how strict that is), and a summarylike rhyming couplet. ababcdcdefefgg rhyme scheme. And it shouldn't be spaced out like it is here.. but I think it makes it easier on the eyes, and much as I love the form, 'tis but a form.

Tell me what you'd do with this.

I'm most pleased.

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Your Eyes by +pachunka "tis a Shakespearean sonnet," the poet says in his comments. Pachunka explains what that means but reading this poem causes one to forget "form" as sound sinks the reader into meaning. ( Featured by °jsenn )

~Rozzi-dk Feb 12, 2013

Nice

~gallymont Mar 1, 2009

I aggree with the spacing, especially when you deal with quatrains and coupletes. However, just to talk about form; if it's a Shakespearean sonnet then there's just two little problems.

Lines 2 and 4, overcome and sun, aren't true rhyme, they're closer to slant rhyme - which isn't shakespearean.

Line 5 has 11 syllables.

But as you said, a form is a form, and nothing more.